procratinating is my specialty. I still have three chapters of bio notes, and half a math assignment at least, but here I am.

I really like the way foreign languages sound. maybe that's why I listen to music in other languages so much. You can look at some of the translations, and they're really nothing spectacular. but it sounds so much nicer. does that make any sense? maybe it's because I don't understand the language. thus you focus more on the actual sounds of the language as opposed to the words themself. With music in English, I spend too much time trying to analyze what the song is really saying. with foreign music, I just hear music?

I don't think that makes sense at all.

Which brings me to my next topic, which I've mentioned before, I believe. I want to learn Chinese after I finish Japanese. I guess I should specify that I mean Mandarin. but whatever.

I don't really know how to explain it, but sometimes I think in Japanese. not really, and not well. I don't know near enough. But I'll think something in english, and then try to work it out in Japanese. lately, I try to do the same thing with Chinese, but I really don't know any at all. Which is a lie. but only sort of. I started teaching myself Japanese in 5th grade, and somehow or another, I didn't do a horrible job. I couldn't hold a conversation at all or anything, but what I did definitely helped with my classes now. So I sometimes think, well why can't I do the same with Chinese?

the problem lies in the pronunciation. Since the language depends so much on how you say something, not just what you say, I don't want to develop bad habits before I know what I'm doing. of course, it's probably too late for that already. I really shouldn't try singing in other languages. but for me, music with lyrics is meant to be sung, and I can't help it.

what I try to do, then, is just recognize characters. as in, what they mean, and how to say them. but the best I can do is pinyin. with Japanese, I try to avoid romanji as much as I can, so I want to do the same with Chinese and pinyin. but I guess I'd rather stick with it for now than completely butcher the spoken language. does that make any sense?

the one thing about Chinese that really throws me off is the strokes. With Japanese, for the most part, I can usually work out the stroke order of a kanji by just looking at it. somethings are different than I first think, but that's to be expected. I'm only in my third semester of study, after all. but with a lot of Chinese characters, I don't even know where to begin.

yeah sorry. maybe someday I'll write something useful. maybe someday I'll even post some art here?

anyhow, much <3